was it everything you wished for??

right soo as stupid as it sounds many of u know i have wanted a rock star boyfriend for years...purely because my heart lies in music...and fashion of course lol...but really music i've been raised around it between my brother being in a bad from the age of 13 and my father constantly playing records to my mother singing around the house i guess i've always just found it a passsion of mine!! anyway so i finally grab him and although the band is not global it is a very succesful underground band very commonly known around dublin were i live which is cool!!!its seems like its everythin i wished for...although it's a bit of a blur to me now its pretty cool i have to say!!
but one thing..me n my friend dean are drifting apart..he's really close to me prob 1 of the closet people to me he's like a big brother but since this its like we've grown apart its not something i wanted to happen and i hope it doesn't he means more to me than anythin really...its reassuring knowing i can tell some1 all my secrets and know tht there not going to be passed on...hes the only boy to ever see and hear me cry..and knows how to calm me down and let me take out my bad mood he's truely amazing has to be said...so why do i have to convince myself tht im not losing him...i know friends come and go its one of lifes things but why does he have to go??..i know myself he is some1 i would want to stay friends with for the rest of my life...but why is he slipping through the cracks when he shouldn't be??...is it something i have done??...is there something i should say???...i wish i knew what was going on inside his head...i wish i knew what happens next???

wow its been so long since i wrote here it feels like years i've been just soo busy with studying any everything i've found it hard to find any time for myself!!
so i'll fill you in on the recent happenings of my life!!!i had a short fling with an ex boyfriend of mine which i majorly regret but i have learned from my mistakes and moved on i have met a wonderful guy and now we're dating he's in a band so yes at last i got my rockstar as i said i would i was a woman on a mission lol!!!! its my bday in 15 days time and i am soo excited i will 17 and i am going to a gig for it with a few of my close friends so that should be fun!! really life has been very boring for me but with halloween just 2 days away im sure some gossip and twists and turns will head my way!!!!!

why?

why do u always txt me or talk to me on msn when i've forgotten you?
why do u always spot me on the street and talk to me when i've tried to avoid u??
why do u always remind me of the good times we had?
why do u make me think u might miss me even for a second?
why do u make me feel amazing for that split second?
why do u look at me in tht way,the way that makes me think u like me?
why do u go all quite when your around me?
why do u hug me like u used to?
why do u get in my head and stay there?
why do u smile like that at me,that way that makes me melt?
why do u make me go shy?
why do i remember when we kissed??
why can i still feel it on my lips??
why does are song always come on the radio??
why do u make me what to be back in arms again?
why when i smell your after shave to i always miss you?
why did u make those stupid promises to me that you couldn't keep?
why do i miss everything about you?
why do the little things remind me of you?
why is this happening when i was stronger and more independant then ever?
why did you keep coming back in my life?
why do i never want to forget you?
why do i miss more now then ever before?
why do i love more now then i loved you before?
why did you say good bye??

did he??or didn';t he??

any1 who has read my latest blog will know about my new love intrest an well yes he did txt me that nite :-) and we;ve been talking all week and the best thing is its our secret its fun having kno1 no whats going on except for you!!well any1 things have been great we went to higher options togther(this seminar where u figure out about college and everything) and well i got coke spilled all over me :-( but my mystery man came to the rescue he quickly gave me his hoodie and saved me the embarassment of walking around all soggy...he's a really nice guy and i really like him...we;re going to see a band together tonite maybe sparks will fly once agen who knos :-)

weekend news :-)

so another weekend has come and gone and i find my friends and i sitting in on sunday looking out at the pouring rain,txting one another because we are all to tired to actually go out to one another and talk because of the partys we hav been to we're here slaving over homework instead!
but looking back over the weekend somethin amazing happened to me nd a certain sum1,we fell for eachother on friday!!!friday i went to the carnival with the gang of us now i always had a thing for this certain sum1 bt i never adressed it really i left it dwn to being just a friendly thing!but no things changed on friday...i got on this ride called g-force with aido,dean and niall we were all pertrfied on it but we had a laugh!!!anyway wen i got off i went over to him and we got chatting agen as usual but there was mud everywere because of the rain and he was pretending to push me into it and i dunno we just looked at eachother and bang it happened for tht split second it was like wow i think i like you!!anyway i think we both got scared and just stopped but we walked over to the next ride and he was making me laugh and everything and he then invited me to the house party he had last nite!!!i said yes and i went over and had an amazing time it was sucha laugh,while i was in the living room wit my friend ash we were talking and then he walked in and she made up some excuse tht she had to get make up and closed the door and then he walked over and kissed me!!!my heart was pounding in my chest i didn't know what to do without realising we spent 45 minutes together b4 finally rejoining the party and i can't get it out of my head i wonder is this going to be more then a moment of lust and spur of the moment thing will i get a message tonite from him?? what will come of this??all i kno is its a nice memory of last nite! i love this feeling its like im glowing all over its amazing!anyway i better get back to doing my math homework just thought i'd share my story with you :-)

first week of school!!

Yes that time has come around again when we put our uniforms back on,get up at unreasonable hours of the morning and all for one thing SCHOOL!!!it is my senior year as i iprobably have said for the 15th billon time but hey im excited only one year left!!its weird because it hasn't set in yet!!i couldn't believe it stepping back into the busy halls sticking to tht stupid one way system lol!!but hey it is fun i have def had some laughs but it hasn't hit that the other years look up to you now its strange looking at the 1st years and being like wow i was u how much i've grown up!!well one thing i can say is every1 is equally shocked at how much we;ve grown up we're no longer going kiddes discos on a friday but we're now hitting clubs and staying out to the little hours and feeling mature haha its crazy!!!

the bully!!

Although it is something i have tried to supress and make myself think "this is not happening to me in couldn't be" i have finally faced the fact im being bullied!!
this all started about 5 months ago a friend of mine well some1 i once thought was a friend got in a relationship with boy who has minipulated her and made her turn against me and put me down!!she does this by text messages or phone calls harrassing me i tried to pretend it wasn't happening tried to ignore until i realised the problem was much bigger then i was! i confided in my mother and i admire her strenght she made me see my own strenght im still terrifed though!! i have a made a promise to myself tht i will help support anti-bullying charitys i no what it feel likes now and i feel for any1 who must endure what i have it is not a nice feeling it is demeaning it has taken away my confidence!!

guess its all a memory!!

Its amazing how fast time goes by. like seriously i remember my first day of high school that nervous feeling you get and also that excitment becuase u finally feel grown up then all of a sudden time goes into hyper speed and believe or not its over in a flash.
its my senior year this year and i still remember my first house party i ever went to my first disco/dance thing the first time i got into somethin that was over 18's and feeling like a rebel and finally feeling like a grown up and so mature its amazing how much your way of thought can change. on Thursday me and my buddies went to see the killers play in marley park it was out last envent of the summer before we knuckle down to do our leaving certs,get our grades and go to college, although the experience there was unbelievable and will be unforgetable i remember as we were leaving the sad thought hit us all when i friend goes "well thats it we finshed summer in style time to finish school now" right then everyone thought the same thing,not only were we growning up we realised we wouldn't be teenagers forever.
we knew come summer next year would be the begining of us all parting our seperate ways to start making it in the big bad world no longer being old enough to know better but to young to care we now had to be old enough to care!!it was weird realising me and all my friends met as little girls and boys and we're now all young men and women.one took one last picture...thats it sumer over time to move on and up...time to grow up...its sad thinking that all this will just be a memory!!
i once was soo eager to grow up i now wish i could stay in my teens forever!

change??

so everyone changes at one stage or another rite??no 1 stays the same we all grow up and mature but what happens when you ur dream or rather the person you thought was your dream guy at the time turn into an arogant arsehole??
this has happened to me, me and joel were dating a good six months ago it was a messy break up boths of us still liking eachother but having no choice to break up due to other matters!!but anyway we stayed friends throughout but all of a sudden he strikes up conversation and we get txting agen and then meet up today...and wow has he changed and not for the better he made me feel horrible he was no longer this sweet caring guy who you could talk to about anything and always feel comfortable no matter what and now he's this rude arrogaunt person who doesn't have a nice thing to say and only form of communication was to put me down all day i can certainly say my confidence has been knocked quite a fair bit since today but i think it was just the shock of how much things have changed i went home feeling hurt today and he didn't even care i hope karma comes around and bites him because he is certainly no longer my mac dreamy im really disappointed he was way more attractive wen he was nice!i feel sorry for him he had sucha great personality but now i don't know what happens its amazing what change can do to ppl!!!

the big leap....college!!

rite so i've known what i wanted to do since i was in 3rd year which is i think 9th grade for all my readers in the states. i knew i wanted to be in fashion ever since i was old enough to shop i knew that the fashion industry was my calling!!so i decided to combine my 2 passions of writing and fashion into my dream job "fashion journalism" so for the past year or so i have been searching for colleges as it is my last year of high school i know i am finally going into the big bad world away from the clicks and the cheesy discos i will be a grown up come june next year!
Anyway so yeh i originally i was set to go to griffith college study fashion for 3 years and then on to journalism for a year but now all of a sudden i don't wanna stay here in ireland to study i wanna trravel i wanna study in the fashion institute of design and merchandise in LA California.
i lived in cali wen i was younger and i've always felt my true calling was to live there and live that life style have my hectic journalism life in hollywood or downtown LA and then when it all gets to much go out to my beach house at huntington ha its always been my dream but when i've been about college it suddenly hit me these dreams don't magically come true you need to make them happen for yourself you have to invest time and take chances,my life in LA if i did move would me a major step for me and my family i'd be moving far away from them and left to fend on my own i'd be thrown straight into the deep end i think i could do it to be honest with you!it would certainly be a big challange and a culture change that would take some adjustment but i think it maybe worth the leap it would defiantly teach me to be more independant and in a world like today u gotta learn how to swim fast in the fast pace life we are all begining to lead!!

wanting something you just can't find!

so last night at captain A's calum didn't turn up after our split kinda thing and sitting there looking around sort of hurt it was weird because for so long i didn't need anyone around to hug or kiss it just wasn't me at all but sitting there on my own hit me maybe i just do want someone around you know just to be there and to cuddle and to go to the movies with stupid simple things maybe i wanted more then "just fun" with calum maybe i expected more from it actually no i did expect more from it! so im saying it i wouldn;t mind having a boyfriend around its just finding him is the problem i made a promise to myself not to settle for anyone unless its who i truly want to i've made alot of mistakes with picking boys most of them turning out to be controling or clingy or to pressurising! i just want my own rockstar not in the literal meaning of the word (would be nice though lol) but yehh a musician tall,dark eyes u know the usual like summers coming to an end and even though it was amazing and i made lots of new friends and have grown up immensly compared to the beginning i think i'd like to find someone to keep me company ha but yeh i don't like being on my own anymore i want someone to fall back on when things get rough!i'd love to know were he is lol.!

party with a rockstar.....or not

ok my rockstar lover did not go exactly to plan after 2 dates we are over and from no fault of my own he still likes me and i still like him but no its because of a friend of mine and what he said to my rockstar so yes i am VERY annoyed but im calming down and i've decided that one day i will get my rockstar if it kills me it'll happen its one of those things on my bucket list haha!!!
im being positive and i am on the search for a rockstar lover i haven;t a clue were they all hide out but i will find one mark my words haha!!!so if any1 knows a rockstar or wants to put me in the direction of one id be more then grateful haha!!

new friend!!!

every feel sometimes that nobody gets you or understands the way you think?? well i felt this way until i met this guy who had been tru most the same stuff as me,shared my way of thinking and got me but surprise he's on the other side of the world!
stephan's his name he's one really cool guy and i get along great with him but wanna know somethin strange??? we're very alike in how we grew up down to our bdays im 13th of november his 13 of january lol!!ok i know most of u are thinking ok ur a weirdo but please hear me out!!
i really think i may of found a possible true friend here who understands the different layers of me its great being able to talk to somebody i can really empathise with its a bit like a weird serendipity kinda sorta yeh lol!!
any way i just wanted to post this because i now believe every1 has some1 that can and will understand them i hope u find urs!!!
:-)

love games

i love mondays...actually no thats a lie i love monday nites at captain A'S when you find a guy u really like and he seems to like you back!!!!
rite heres the story so me,jeanine and shoni were all sitting around the bar tables out side captain A'S sipping on sex on the beach's wen i see out of the corner of my eye this guy 5'8 id say wearin skinny jeans,converse and tee with sandy blonde longish hair...MY TYPE...so im there gaucking over him wen shoni turns around and says she knows him so she gives me his number and i txt "hey 4rom the girl in the waist coat ;)" little did i know this would start off a beautiful thing by the end of the night we were wraped around eachother and i even got a goodnite kiss or 4 lol!!but any way we've been txting and talking ever since and i got it soo bad for him the only problem is he keeps playing it hot and cold and i don't know if he likes me or were i stand its so annoying not knowing!!what is going tru his head what id do to know what he thinks of me does he like me??am i on his mind??was i once off never to happen again??..boys why do you do this to us dry us crazy wondering playing games with us wen u know how we feel its fun for the time...i love and hate this part of getting to know sum1 its an adrenline rush wit heart ache thrown in not knowing yet knowing all at the same time its the best and worst feeling a human can possibly have!!!im seeing him tomoro nite i hope maybe i mite get another kiss hu knos all i kno is that im love sick lol

new chapter

people sometimes refer to there lives as books....different parts are chapters!!
lately I've been thinking with all this stuff going on around me with beginning a new school,realising what true friendship is,learning that i can stand up to ppl by myself and creating new goals,is this a new chapter of my life??
I don't feel down anymore no more stress for me i feel enlighten like a new person that can make things happen. Hmm so this is what growing up feels like its strange i feel like i can handle myself so much better I'm loving this buzz i really am.
for the first time i think i actually believe my dreams will true maybe its just me being immature but hey i like it so there.
I've had the worse case of writers block ever I've been blocked up for like 2 weeks but finally this has totally and completely cleared and I'm back on track!
I'm really excited about the next few months ahead i don't know why but i have a good feeling about them like something goods gonna happen!!
ever get that intuition they call it hmm now there's something to think about!!
any way time for me to move on to the next chapter of my life and I'm taking you with me i hope you enjoy hehe

self indulgent day!!

ok so after watching 28 weeks later i could not sleep at all last night stupid movie making me think zombies are gonna eat me anyway so i got to sleep really late and didn;t wake up till like 1...so i mosy down stairs make myself a sugary cup of tea and look out the window and was lyk YAY its sunny wuu im wearing shorts so around 3 i go up get into the shower get dressed in my favourite pair of shorts and on the way down stairs its starts raining like lashing rain so i decided forget this i run back up stairs get into my favourite juicy tracksuit and i have decided for the rest of the day i am lying on my couch watching tv and relaxing....i love these days of pure ME time its great i love just gettin cosy and chilling out its sucha good feeling.id recommend self indulgent day to every one....so now people i am going to go lie on my couch for the rest of the day so see ya'll later hhehee

its gone!!!

YAY writers block is cleared!!!
ok so i was out with dean and jennine and chris...and lately well me and dean kinda have started liking eachother its weird i never thought this would happen but today in his house while watching 28 weeks later,while i was terrified to bits i couldn't help wanting him to come over and put his arm around me it was strange i was fighting these feelings for so long that giving in terrified me....but in the end giving in wasn;t so bad!!...I even gave in and let him walk me home (because i was afraid of the zombies eating me lol) it felt nice but here is the in lying problem as usual lol we're gonna be in the same school and in all the same classes together so i don't know wether to take another step but oh well we'll see how things work out!!!
ohh and my friend chris got a gig up in captain A's on monday night i can't wait to see him play now im designated photographer and video director my favourite lol!!! but now i have to figure out what to wear...you never know who you mite meet!!!

and it continues....

still stung with writers block rite now and its getting kind of annoying rite now!!!
omg i had to meet my ex today and im happy to say in seeing him now i have absoulutly no feelings for him anymore i don't know what i saw him all i kno is the is the strange stuff he's into has taken his toll on him bless him but still he was a cocky prick but it made me feel good to put him in his place after all he put me through!!!this might sound a lil bitter but oh well he was not such a nice person!!!
i feel better now some how that a weight is relieved and that i can now carry on with the rest of life without someone hanging on to me BUT and its a big but might i add he still wears the necklace i gave him what does this mean??i suppose that bit will prob always hang on but oh well i've moved on and im in a nicer place rite now so im delighted its amazing how 2 months ago if i had of known he was wearing the present i gave him id be delighted but now i just think "what a strange man is he holding on to something?" oh well who knows i certainly don't thats for sure!!
i got to go now and read this novel for college now grr so not looking forward it looks kinda boring but oh well i'll slave through it lol!!!
talk to you all soon and i hope my writers block has lifted so i can start writing about the more intresting aspects of my life!!!

writers block!!

i finally now fully understand what the term writers block is and i have it rite now i set this up to document about my life and the goings on in typical teenagers life!!!! but all of a sudden im stuck i have a bunch of things to write about but i just don't know how to word it.im listening to akon at the moment does any one else agree with me he has the most annoying voice in the world how he made it big we'll never know will we haha oh and heres a lil bit of useless knowledge for you did u know in most of his songs he says "up in the club shaking for a dub" intresting ehh i wonder does akons song writers get writers block and decide to stick in the same lyrics and hope we don't realise hmmm intresting!!!!
anyway im now in search of a cure for writers block so who wants to be my muse hands up??

my thoughts!!

hmmm i don't know whether to hate sundays or love them?? i hate them because you know its monday tomrro but i love them because its as chilled out as ever!!!!
like today i just lay around till 3 went shopping for a bit came home had dinner and now im here writing to you!!
i tried my uniform on fully today it felt weird seeing me in it complelty i can't believe its actually happening its finally here in a month nd a half i will be starting im kinda of nervous and excited all at the same time its lyk the feeling of an adrenaline rush with a touch of anxiety!!!
i still can't sleep rite i end up staying up till 4 in the morning and then i finally go asleep its crazy if anyone knows what this is please share lol!!
all in all im probably just babling here but i don't care i love writing hehe!!!!
i turned the phone bac on today i had 75 unread messages and 98 missed calls talk about crazy.

turned my mobile phon off for the first time in years

its true i did it i got soo sick of people talking crap to me that i let it just run out of power.
it feels good to just chill out without the interference of some one txting or calling me. I'm sick of getting horrible text messages from minor people it feels great to just give urself a time out well this is my time out.
im considering getting a new number and only letting my extremly close friends have it because of sick of these fake people txting me and calling me asking me to hang out or sending me stuff to put me down all to be popular.
maybe im just over reacting but this last day without the phone has felt great i don't feel stressed anymore. i think i needed the break to be honest.

just a little sweet thought

lately I've been feeling a bit down but today i heard a song by an amazing band called National Product i don't know who's heard of them or not but I'm a big fan any way i was kind of inspired by a song by them called "love me" and theres a line in it that goes "write down every little thing that makes you love me...cause this could be the last time" it stuck in my head and now i keep playing it over and over agen but i was thinking why don't you do it?? write down every little thing you love about that special some one may it be a friend,lover or even a sister or a brother but think about it you'll be amazed at the amount of stuff you write down. just think of the little things like remembering a time you went to a fun fair and got on the roller coaster so many times you threw up just stupid things that like that i dunno i suppose it makes you feel good and the other person to so go on give it a try i dare ya!!!

today started out well and ended terrible...i hate those days...i was just chilling with dean when i got the bitchy text message off my friend...is this what the world has come to no longer can people turn around and say things to your face they have to text it to you its like do you not have the courage to say it to be honest i think it shows a complete lack in maturity and the mad thing is the things she was txting me about was completely untrue people are strange sometimes they complain about being bullied when in fact they are the bully i don't know in the last few weeks i have become wiser and have realised what a true friend is i now know that a true friend will not go mad at you for any reason or drop you like a hot potato as soon as they get a new boyfriend i don't know maybe I've grown up and the last few weeks have given me the experience not to take crap and be a push over i think that's my problem i can be to nice and let things slide i have good pations and don't get annoyed easy its just things like this that annoy me. a good friend told me if their willing to leave you at a drop of a hat or turn on you for any reason possible they weren't worth having around in the fist place there just not worth the stress!! how true!!

why does have to be so complicated??

right so I'm moving school and all though I'm very happy to be leaving my old one I'm faced with once agen starting something new making a whole new set of friends getting used to a whole new style of life I'm not sure but this time I'm nervous what if i don't fit in??sure i have really good friends that are in the school and are like your going to fine and fit in a dream but I'm afraid of a repeat of my old school the bullying and backstabbing and horrible surroundings i hate the fact you can barely trust anyone these days its like every one has this hidden agenda and anything you say they twist to make you look like a bad person. its like you need to keep your pain,hurt and worries inside in case of someone blabbing them to the whole world its not good its like we're living in a world were we no longer trust anyone everyone seems to be the enemy anyone better,prettier,smarter or funnier must be destroyed and taken down is today's society really this popularity driven that this is what we are expected to be like??it really makes me wonder whats the point in growing up things were so much easier when it came to playing out in the street with skipping ropes or riding bikes no one cared how fashionable there clothes looked or if there hair was done right it was just pure and simple everyone just wanted to have a good time and hang out...now going out means networking and socialising being known having as many friends as possible and to be the best one can be at everything and always happy and make everything we do seem so easy have you ever stepped back and looked at the world around you and thought why does everything have to be so complicated??what happened to things being care free?

rite so about 11 o clock last night i get a phone call from no other then ex-boyfriend we're broken up 4 weeks now thought he was well out of my hair but no he returns but not saying he wants me back nono but instead saying he wants to hang out with me cause he misses the laugh we had together to be honest i know he's only looking for one thing off of me BUT the big thing is my heart jumped when u called i got that happy feeling i used to get which is sooo not right ugh its soo confusing being my age and trying to figure all this stuff out its like the most of me is like "don't touch the sap you know he's a player" but the other half is like "well one kiss wouldn't hurt would it?" the truth is it would and i know it that one kiss will make me want him no matter how much of a bastard he was and that really annoys me why must we find the men that are complete and utter wasters with an ego that goes through the roof very attractive! and what annoys me even more is the fact that its after taking me this long to get up off the ground dust myself off and move on and all of a sudden he shows up with cards and flowers saying he wants to be friends but honestly can you ever truly be friends with your ex?? i don't think you can there's to much history between you two! so on the phone last night he was trying to act as this big shot (imitating his cousin who's at least 2 years older than him) and it really annoyed me its like why are trying to be something that your completely not to make me what i could only perceive as jealous but little did he know he was actually pissing me off. i give up why do ex boyfriends always turn up when your just after getting over them and moving on??any answers??

OK i am just home from shopping and wow i feel chilled out and relaxed its amazing what getting new clothes does for a girl it really is!!!!oh my god i wen t to see sex and the city and I'm in awe it is the most amazing movie i have ever seen...it was like watching all different parts of my own personality on screen...and not to mention the amazing fashion shown throughout from haute couture to trend styles i have to say it was not only one of the best story lines but one of the best dressed movies to date it featured designers such as Alexander MC queen to the more original Dior and Gucci hehe i would seriously urge every girl and one to go see this movie!! anyway I'm incredibly bored right now and i still haven' t solved my man problems i just don't know what to do anymore I'm considering becoming a recluse why does this have to be so confusing!!and lately all I've wanted is to be on own is this normal??i just don't want to be surrounded by people i don't know why its strange for me i love to be social but lately all I've wanted to be is on my own surrounded my know one but my thoughts but then i end up getting annoyed because my thoughts are so deep and confusing....is this right..??

OK so i have this best friend who happens to be guy we've been friends for about 3 years now almost 4 and all of a sudden he springs on me that he really likes me and thinks he's falling in love with me now i have been in a state of shock for about 3 weeks now since he told me i don't know what to feel its confusing it brings back the old question never get with your best friend because you'll end up losing them like he's a great guy no doubt about it and everyone says we'll be great together but I'm afraid of risking everything over one stupid move! the idea of losing someone scares me like knowing that if we broke up we'd never be able to get back the long phone conversations and hours spent txting each other!and to make matters worse i do have slight feelings for him but i also have feelings for other guys as well I'm not ready to dive int0 something but i feel bad for keeping him hanging on i just don't know what to do anymore its like i don't want to break his heart but what if i end up doing that i couldn't bare the thought of it i just don't know what to do honestly should you give it a shot with your best friend and risk everything or play it safe and don't act on idle feelings??what do you think??

where has indivduality gone?

ever wandered around Grafton street and noticed that every other girl aged between 13-18 is wearing way too much make-up and is decked out in the latest designer clothes with a huge handbag (usually juicy couture or Chloe)??this is what is known as the D4 girl and it is taking Dublin by storm for almost 3 years now. In my eyes it seems individuality has been ditched for stereotypical imagery. It is almost like we have become so insecure with ourselves we must conform and no longer feel comfortable in expressing ourselves through the clothes we wear but must conform with a stereotype in order to fit in. However the D4 style is not the only sterotype we see there are many and im sure this has been around since long before i was born. It just annoys me now that people are afraid to wear clothes they find intresting that reflect their style incase of what other people say fashion does not mean you must fit it means you stand out from the crowd. I really admire the people who wear what they want when they want it shows they have great confidence in themselves which i wish everyone could have at least a little bit of. I also noticed that teenage trend magazines do not influence indivuality but instead they influence this conformity to look like your favourite celebrity now i am not going to lie i have tried it myself but to no avail i still look like im trying to hard and am insecure with how i look. I am now 16 and am only begining to start breaking out of the mould i am no longer afraid to wear certain designers such as ecko by marc ecko or going for more contemporary designers such as beyu or miu miu. Hopefully in the near future we can see magazines influencing teenagers to become more indiviual in there choice of clothing and not that they must look a certain way or wear a certain brand or designer to fit in.