new friend!!!

every feel sometimes that nobody gets you or understands the way you think?? well i felt this way until i met this guy who had been tru most the same stuff as me,shared my way of thinking and got me but surprise he's on the other side of the world!
stephan's his name he's one really cool guy and i get along great with him but wanna know somethin strange??? we're very alike in how we grew up down to our bdays im 13th of november his 13 of january lol!!ok i know most of u are thinking ok ur a weirdo but please hear me out!!
i really think i may of found a possible true friend here who understands the different layers of me its great being able to talk to somebody i can really empathise with its a bit like a weird serendipity kinda sorta yeh lol!!
any way i just wanted to post this because i now believe every1 has some1 that can and will understand them i hope u find urs!!!
:-)

love games

i love mondays...actually no thats a lie i love monday nites at captain A'S when you find a guy u really like and he seems to like you back!!!!
rite heres the story so me,jeanine and shoni were all sitting around the bar tables out side captain A'S sipping on sex on the beach's wen i see out of the corner of my eye this guy 5'8 id say wearin skinny jeans,converse and tee with sandy blonde longish hair...MY TYPE...so im there gaucking over him wen shoni turns around and says she knows him so she gives me his number and i txt "hey 4rom the girl in the waist coat ;)" little did i know this would start off a beautiful thing by the end of the night we were wraped around eachother and i even got a goodnite kiss or 4 lol!!but any way we've been txting and talking ever since and i got it soo bad for him the only problem is he keeps playing it hot and cold and i don't know if he likes me or were i stand its so annoying not knowing!!what is going tru his head what id do to know what he thinks of me does he like me??am i on his mind??was i once off never to happen again??..boys why do you do this to us dry us crazy wondering playing games with us wen u know how we feel its fun for the time...i love and hate this part of getting to know sum1 its an adrenline rush wit heart ache thrown in not knowing yet knowing all at the same time its the best and worst feeling a human can possibly have!!!im seeing him tomoro nite i hope maybe i mite get another kiss hu knos all i kno is that im love sick lol

new chapter

people sometimes refer to there lives as books....different parts are chapters!!
lately I've been thinking with all this stuff going on around me with beginning a new school,realising what true friendship is,learning that i can stand up to ppl by myself and creating new goals,is this a new chapter of my life??
I don't feel down anymore no more stress for me i feel enlighten like a new person that can make things happen. Hmm so this is what growing up feels like its strange i feel like i can handle myself so much better I'm loving this buzz i really am.
for the first time i think i actually believe my dreams will true maybe its just me being immature but hey i like it so there.
I've had the worse case of writers block ever I've been blocked up for like 2 weeks but finally this has totally and completely cleared and I'm back on track!
I'm really excited about the next few months ahead i don't know why but i have a good feeling about them like something goods gonna happen!!
ever get that intuition they call it hmm now there's something to think about!!
any way time for me to move on to the next chapter of my life and I'm taking you with me i hope you enjoy hehe

self indulgent day!!

ok so after watching 28 weeks later i could not sleep at all last night stupid movie making me think zombies are gonna eat me anyway so i got to sleep really late and didn;t wake up till like 1...so i mosy down stairs make myself a sugary cup of tea and look out the window and was lyk YAY its sunny wuu im wearing shorts so around 3 i go up get into the shower get dressed in my favourite pair of shorts and on the way down stairs its starts raining like lashing rain so i decided forget this i run back up stairs get into my favourite juicy tracksuit and i have decided for the rest of the day i am lying on my couch watching tv and relaxing....i love these days of pure ME time its great i love just gettin cosy and chilling out its sucha good feeling.id recommend self indulgent day to every one....so now people i am going to go lie on my couch for the rest of the day so see ya'll later hhehee

its gone!!!

YAY writers block is cleared!!!
ok so i was out with dean and jennine and chris...and lately well me and dean kinda have started liking eachother its weird i never thought this would happen but today in his house while watching 28 weeks later,while i was terrified to bits i couldn't help wanting him to come over and put his arm around me it was strange i was fighting these feelings for so long that giving in terrified me....but in the end giving in wasn;t so bad!!...I even gave in and let him walk me home (because i was afraid of the zombies eating me lol) it felt nice but here is the in lying problem as usual lol we're gonna be in the same school and in all the same classes together so i don't know wether to take another step but oh well we'll see how things work out!!!
ohh and my friend chris got a gig up in captain A's on monday night i can't wait to see him play now im designated photographer and video director my favourite lol!!! but now i have to figure out what to wear...you never know who you mite meet!!!

and it continues....

still stung with writers block rite now and its getting kind of annoying rite now!!!
omg i had to meet my ex today and im happy to say in seeing him now i have absoulutly no feelings for him anymore i don't know what i saw him all i kno is the is the strange stuff he's into has taken his toll on him bless him but still he was a cocky prick but it made me feel good to put him in his place after all he put me through!!!this might sound a lil bitter but oh well he was not such a nice person!!!
i feel better now some how that a weight is relieved and that i can now carry on with the rest of life without someone hanging on to me BUT and its a big but might i add he still wears the necklace i gave him what does this mean??i suppose that bit will prob always hang on but oh well i've moved on and im in a nicer place rite now so im delighted its amazing how 2 months ago if i had of known he was wearing the present i gave him id be delighted but now i just think "what a strange man is he holding on to something?" oh well who knows i certainly don't thats for sure!!
i got to go now and read this novel for college now grr so not looking forward it looks kinda boring but oh well i'll slave through it lol!!!
talk to you all soon and i hope my writers block has lifted so i can start writing about the more intresting aspects of my life!!!

writers block!!

i finally now fully understand what the term writers block is and i have it rite now i set this up to document about my life and the goings on in typical teenagers life!!!! but all of a sudden im stuck i have a bunch of things to write about but i just don't know how to word it.im listening to akon at the moment does any one else agree with me he has the most annoying voice in the world how he made it big we'll never know will we haha oh and heres a lil bit of useless knowledge for you did u know in most of his songs he says "up in the club shaking for a dub" intresting ehh i wonder does akons song writers get writers block and decide to stick in the same lyrics and hope we don't realise hmmm intresting!!!!
anyway im now in search of a cure for writers block so who wants to be my muse hands up??