its been a while!!

wow it has been so long since i've written on this!!but in my defence i've been super busy so let me bring you up to date.
so i graduated high school with hounours and got excepted to do a pre med in dundrum college for nurses, which is a dramatic change from wanting to work in fashion, i just found out during the year my true calling was in medicine.
i then had an incrediable summer filled with festivals,gigs and dancing but little did i know i trip to california would change me view of life forever.
while i was visiting cali i met up with nic me and nic have been friends for bout 8 years now but because we live so far away but this year when we met up things had changed he'd grown up and so had i we were no longer children it was love at first sight, hanging out was amazing their was a feeling of electricity between us i don't think either of us stopped smiling for the 10 days i was there! we both went to disneyland together and while on the tower of terror got tht be closer holding hands in the dark, tht started us off by the time we got to space mountain we were cuddling and as soon as the fire works went off we were kissing it was perfect however both of us forget one crucial detail ...i was going home at the end of the week and this all had to end, we didn;t know we'd fall in love. saying good bye was the worst i've never been so heartbroken in my life we talk constantly now tht im home but i constantly wonder can this work in the future? im going to be going to colege in the states next year and i wonder if it is our time then? this is one thing i never planend for and definatly one thing i dont want to end! so can some one please tell me...what do you do when the person you love lives a million miles away? should u hold on? or let it go?