wow it has been so long since i've written on this!!but in my defence i've been super busy so let me bring you up to date.
so i graduated high school with hounours and got excepted to do a pre med in dundrum college for nurses, which is a dramatic change from wanting to work in fashion, i just found out during the year my true calling was in medicine.
i then had an incrediable summer filled with festivals,gigs and dancing but little did i know i trip to california would change me view of life forever.
while i was visiting cali i met up with nic me and nic have been friends for bout 8 years now but because we live so far away but this year when we met up things had changed he'd grown up and so had i we were no longer children it was love at first sight, hanging out was amazing their was a feeling of electricity between us i don't think either of us stopped smiling for the 10 days i was there! we both went to disneyland together and while on the tower of terror got tht be closer holding hands in the dark, tht started us off by the time we got to space mountain we were cuddling and as soon as the fire works went off we were kissing it was perfect however both of us forget one crucial detail ...i was going home at the end of the week and this all had to end, we didn;t know we'd fall in love. saying good bye was the worst i've never been so heartbroken in my life we talk constantly now tht im home but i constantly wonder can this work in the future? im going to be going to colege in the states next year and i wonder if it is our time then? this is one thing i never planend for and definatly one thing i dont want to end! so can some one please tell me...what do you do when the person you love lives a million miles away? should u hold on? or let it go?
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
i never thought high school would end!it's something i've been aware of but don't think i fully believed!its my last 4 weeks now before grad and its strange to think this'll be the last few weeks i'll walk through the corridors to classes or stand in base area A on mondays awaiting the goss of what went on in the parties the pervious few days.
it's weird knowing that your top of the chain when u remember so clearly what in was like to be a freshman.
I keep getting kind of sad although high school wasn't the best few years of my life i did have to rough patches but doesn't everyone its weird knowing the people i say hi every morning too come september i'll never see again!
i always thought that graduating you felt so grown up and so sure of everything and too be honest i feel more lost now then i ever have its strange finally making decisions like what college you want to go to when you want too do so much i always assumed everything just fell into place i couldn't of been more wrong!!
however these feelings aren't bad and scared its more exciting knowing i can be who i want to be now no more clicks or stereotypes its time to be me and its kind of exciting!
it's weird knowing that your top of the chain when u remember so clearly what in was like to be a freshman.
I keep getting kind of sad although high school wasn't the best few years of my life i did have to rough patches but doesn't everyone its weird knowing the people i say hi every morning too come september i'll never see again!
i always thought that graduating you felt so grown up and so sure of everything and too be honest i feel more lost now then i ever have its strange finally making decisions like what college you want to go to when you want too do so much i always assumed everything just fell into place i couldn't of been more wrong!!
however these feelings aren't bad and scared its more exciting knowing i can be who i want to be now no more clicks or stereotypes its time to be me and its kind of exciting!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
senior year
ohh my gosshh senior year is like no other i must admit the stress is something else between getting grades and deciding what u wanna do with your life its crazy its like bam ur in highschool and every1 is drinking,drugs,having sex,experimenting like there's no tomorro and u just look around and wonder where did the little kids u once new go to???
it is by far one of the most emotional years of my life knowing most the people i either sit beside in class or eat lunch with prob won't be my BFF'S in about 2 years time....pessimistic i know but its true sure half of us are traveling and the other half going to various colleges around the country the likely hood of us staying this close is slim!!!and its upsetting to think really so you try snap as many photos as you can before its to late,before the memories gone and try make as many private jokes as possible because when will we have this chance again!!!!we all graduate in 5 months time and i don't think its hit us yet we'll be putting on our cap and gowns to collect your certificate before we go on to attempt the LEAVING CERT to decide what college we're going too!!!
its strange knowing the safety net which was always there for us to catch us will be gone in a matter of months we shall be on our own making our own decisions for a change not being told what class to go to anymore but being independant!
And no matter how independant we think we are have you ever noticed when things go wrong u still run to your parents?? i wonder what it'll be like to have that security blanket some what lifted!!!
i am just about to take my mocks exams and im studying like crazy and it just made me think for a second....what ever happend to the little kids i once knew???we are now men and women..we are now the dreaded thing we always hated as youngsters....we,re grown ups!!!!!
it is by far one of the most emotional years of my life knowing most the people i either sit beside in class or eat lunch with prob won't be my BFF'S in about 2 years time....pessimistic i know but its true sure half of us are traveling and the other half going to various colleges around the country the likely hood of us staying this close is slim!!!and its upsetting to think really so you try snap as many photos as you can before its to late,before the memories gone and try make as many private jokes as possible because when will we have this chance again!!!!we all graduate in 5 months time and i don't think its hit us yet we'll be putting on our cap and gowns to collect your certificate before we go on to attempt the LEAVING CERT to decide what college we're going too!!!
its strange knowing the safety net which was always there for us to catch us will be gone in a matter of months we shall be on our own making our own decisions for a change not being told what class to go to anymore but being independant!
And no matter how independant we think we are have you ever noticed when things go wrong u still run to your parents?? i wonder what it'll be like to have that security blanket some what lifted!!!
i am just about to take my mocks exams and im studying like crazy and it just made me think for a second....what ever happend to the little kids i once knew???we are now men and women..we are now the dreaded thing we always hated as youngsters....we,re grown ups!!!!!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
was it everything you wished for??
right soo as stupid as it sounds many of u know i have wanted a rock star boyfriend for years...purely because my heart lies in music...and fashion of course lol...but really music i've been raised around it between my brother being in a bad from the age of 13 and my father constantly playing records to my mother singing around the house i guess i've always just found it a passsion of mine!! anyway so i finally grab him and although the band is not global it is a very succesful underground band very commonly known around dublin were i live which is cool!!!its seems like its everythin i wished for...although it's a bit of a blur to me now its pretty cool i have to say!!
but one thing..me n my friend dean are drifting apart..he's really close to me prob 1 of the closet people to me he's like a big brother but since this its like we've grown apart its not something i wanted to happen and i hope it doesn't he means more to me than anythin really...its reassuring knowing i can tell some1 all my secrets and know tht there not going to be passed on...hes the only boy to ever see and hear me cry..and knows how to calm me down and let me take out my bad mood he's truely amazing has to be said...so why do i have to convince myself tht im not losing him...i know friends come and go its one of lifes things but why does he have to go??..i know myself he is some1 i would want to stay friends with for the rest of my life...but why is he slipping through the cracks when he shouldn't be??...is it something i have done??...is there something i should say???...i wish i knew what was going on inside his head...i wish i knew what happens next???
but one thing..me n my friend dean are drifting apart..he's really close to me prob 1 of the closet people to me he's like a big brother but since this its like we've grown apart its not something i wanted to happen and i hope it doesn't he means more to me than anythin really...its reassuring knowing i can tell some1 all my secrets and know tht there not going to be passed on...hes the only boy to ever see and hear me cry..and knows how to calm me down and let me take out my bad mood he's truely amazing has to be said...so why do i have to convince myself tht im not losing him...i know friends come and go its one of lifes things but why does he have to go??..i know myself he is some1 i would want to stay friends with for the rest of my life...but why is he slipping through the cracks when he shouldn't be??...is it something i have done??...is there something i should say???...i wish i knew what was going on inside his head...i wish i knew what happens next???
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
wow its been so long since i wrote here it feels like years i've been just soo busy with studying any everything i've found it hard to find any time for myself!!
so i'll fill you in on the recent happenings of my life!!!i had a short fling with an ex boyfriend of mine which i majorly regret but i have learned from my mistakes and moved on i have met a wonderful guy and now we're dating he's in a band so yes at last i got my rockstar as i said i would i was a woman on a mission lol!!!! its my bday in 15 days time and i am soo excited i will 17 and i am going to a gig for it with a few of my close friends so that should be fun!! really life has been very boring for me but with halloween just 2 days away im sure some gossip and twists and turns will head my way!!!!!
so i'll fill you in on the recent happenings of my life!!!i had a short fling with an ex boyfriend of mine which i majorly regret but i have learned from my mistakes and moved on i have met a wonderful guy and now we're dating he's in a band so yes at last i got my rockstar as i said i would i was a woman on a mission lol!!!! its my bday in 15 days time and i am soo excited i will 17 and i am going to a gig for it with a few of my close friends so that should be fun!! really life has been very boring for me but with halloween just 2 days away im sure some gossip and twists and turns will head my way!!!!!
Saturday, October 11, 2008
why?
why do u always txt me or talk to me on msn when i've forgotten you?
why do u always spot me on the street and talk to me when i've tried to avoid u??
why do u always remind me of the good times we had?
why do u make me think u might miss me even for a second?
why do u make me feel amazing for that split second?
why do u look at me in tht way,the way that makes me think u like me?
why do u go all quite when your around me?
why do u hug me like u used to?
why do u get in my head and stay there?
why do u smile like that at me,that way that makes me melt?
why do u make me go shy?
why do i remember when we kissed??
why can i still feel it on my lips??
why does are song always come on the radio??
why do u make me what to be back in arms again?
why when i smell your after shave to i always miss you?
why did u make those stupid promises to me that you couldn't keep?
why do i miss everything about you?
why do the little things remind me of you?
why is this happening when i was stronger and more independant then ever?
why did you keep coming back in my life?
why do i never want to forget you?
why do i miss more now then ever before?
why do i love more now then i loved you before?
why did you say good bye??
why do u always spot me on the street and talk to me when i've tried to avoid u??
why do u always remind me of the good times we had?
why do u make me think u might miss me even for a second?
why do u make me feel amazing for that split second?
why do u look at me in tht way,the way that makes me think u like me?
why do u go all quite when your around me?
why do u hug me like u used to?
why do u get in my head and stay there?
why do u smile like that at me,that way that makes me melt?
why do u make me go shy?
why do i remember when we kissed??
why can i still feel it on my lips??
why does are song always come on the radio??
why do u make me what to be back in arms again?
why when i smell your after shave to i always miss you?
why did u make those stupid promises to me that you couldn't keep?
why do i miss everything about you?
why do the little things remind me of you?
why is this happening when i was stronger and more independant then ever?
why did you keep coming back in my life?
why do i never want to forget you?
why do i miss more now then ever before?
why do i love more now then i loved you before?
why did you say good bye??
Saturday, September 20, 2008
did he??or didn';t he??
any1 who has read my latest blog will know about my new love intrest an well yes he did txt me that nite :-) and we;ve been talking all week and the best thing is its our secret its fun having kno1 no whats going on except for you!!well any1 things have been great we went to higher options togther(this seminar where u figure out about college and everything) and well i got coke spilled all over me :-( but my mystery man came to the rescue he quickly gave me his hoodie and saved me the embarassment of walking around all soggy...he's a really nice guy and i really like him...we;re going to see a band together tonite maybe sparks will fly once agen who knos :-)
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