my thoughts!!

hmmm i don't know whether to hate sundays or love them?? i hate them because you know its monday tomrro but i love them because its as chilled out as ever!!!!
like today i just lay around till 3 went shopping for a bit came home had dinner and now im here writing to you!!
i tried my uniform on fully today it felt weird seeing me in it complelty i can't believe its actually happening its finally here in a month nd a half i will be starting im kinda of nervous and excited all at the same time its lyk the feeling of an adrenaline rush with a touch of anxiety!!!
i still can't sleep rite i end up staying up till 4 in the morning and then i finally go asleep its crazy if anyone knows what this is please share lol!!
all in all im probably just babling here but i don't care i love writing hehe!!!!
i turned the phone bac on today i had 75 unread messages and 98 missed calls talk about crazy.

turned my mobile phon off for the first time in years

its true i did it i got soo sick of people talking crap to me that i let it just run out of power.
it feels good to just chill out without the interference of some one txting or calling me. I'm sick of getting horrible text messages from minor people it feels great to just give urself a time out well this is my time out.
im considering getting a new number and only letting my extremly close friends have it because of sick of these fake people txting me and calling me asking me to hang out or sending me stuff to put me down all to be popular.
maybe im just over reacting but this last day without the phone has felt great i don't feel stressed anymore. i think i needed the break to be honest.

just a little sweet thought

lately I've been feeling a bit down but today i heard a song by an amazing band called National Product i don't know who's heard of them or not but I'm a big fan any way i was kind of inspired by a song by them called "love me" and theres a line in it that goes "write down every little thing that makes you love me...cause this could be the last time" it stuck in my head and now i keep playing it over and over agen but i was thinking why don't you do it?? write down every little thing you love about that special some one may it be a friend,lover or even a sister or a brother but think about it you'll be amazed at the amount of stuff you write down. just think of the little things like remembering a time you went to a fun fair and got on the roller coaster so many times you threw up just stupid things that like that i dunno i suppose it makes you feel good and the other person to so go on give it a try i dare ya!!!

today started out well and ended terrible...i hate those days...i was just chilling with dean when i got the bitchy text message off my friend...is this what the world has come to no longer can people turn around and say things to your face they have to text it to you its like do you not have the courage to say it to be honest i think it shows a complete lack in maturity and the mad thing is the things she was txting me about was completely untrue people are strange sometimes they complain about being bullied when in fact they are the bully i don't know in the last few weeks i have become wiser and have realised what a true friend is i now know that a true friend will not go mad at you for any reason or drop you like a hot potato as soon as they get a new boyfriend i don't know maybe I've grown up and the last few weeks have given me the experience not to take crap and be a push over i think that's my problem i can be to nice and let things slide i have good pations and don't get annoyed easy its just things like this that annoy me. a good friend told me if their willing to leave you at a drop of a hat or turn on you for any reason possible they weren't worth having around in the fist place there just not worth the stress!! how true!!

why does have to be so complicated??

right so I'm moving school and all though I'm very happy to be leaving my old one I'm faced with once agen starting something new making a whole new set of friends getting used to a whole new style of life I'm not sure but this time I'm nervous what if i don't fit in??sure i have really good friends that are in the school and are like your going to fine and fit in a dream but I'm afraid of a repeat of my old school the bullying and backstabbing and horrible surroundings i hate the fact you can barely trust anyone these days its like every one has this hidden agenda and anything you say they twist to make you look like a bad person. its like you need to keep your pain,hurt and worries inside in case of someone blabbing them to the whole world its not good its like we're living in a world were we no longer trust anyone everyone seems to be the enemy anyone better,prettier,smarter or funnier must be destroyed and taken down is today's society really this popularity driven that this is what we are expected to be like??it really makes me wonder whats the point in growing up things were so much easier when it came to playing out in the street with skipping ropes or riding bikes no one cared how fashionable there clothes looked or if there hair was done right it was just pure and simple everyone just wanted to have a good time and hang out...now going out means networking and socialising being known having as many friends as possible and to be the best one can be at everything and always happy and make everything we do seem so easy have you ever stepped back and looked at the world around you and thought why does everything have to be so complicated??what happened to things being care free?