rite so about 11 o clock last night i get a phone call from no other then ex-boyfriend we're broken up 4 weeks now thought he was well out of my hair but no he returns but not saying he wants me back nono but instead saying he wants to hang out with me cause he misses the laugh we had together to be honest i know he's only looking for one thing off of me BUT the big thing is my heart jumped when u called i got that happy feeling i used to get which is sooo not right ugh its soo confusing being my age and trying to figure all this stuff out its like the most of me is like "don't touch the sap you know he's a player" but the other half is like "well one kiss wouldn't hurt would it?" the truth is it would and i know it that one kiss will make me want him no matter how much of a bastard he was and that really annoys me why must we find the men that are complete and utter wasters with an ego that goes through the roof very attractive! and what annoys me even more is the fact that its after taking me this long to get up off the ground dust myself off and move on and all of a sudden he shows up with cards and flowers saying he wants to be friends but honestly can you ever truly be friends with your ex?? i don't think you can there's to much history between you two! so on the phone last night he was trying to act as this big shot (imitating his cousin who's at least 2 years older than him) and it really annoyed me its like why are trying to be something that your completely not to make me what i could only perceive as jealous but little did he know he was actually pissing me off. i give up why do ex boyfriends always turn up when your just after getting over them and moving on??any answers??

OK i am just home from shopping and wow i feel chilled out and relaxed its amazing what getting new clothes does for a girl it really is!!!!oh my god i wen t to see sex and the city and I'm in awe it is the most amazing movie i have ever seen...it was like watching all different parts of my own personality on screen...and not to mention the amazing fashion shown throughout from haute couture to trend styles i have to say it was not only one of the best story lines but one of the best dressed movies to date it featured designers such as Alexander MC queen to the more original Dior and Gucci hehe i would seriously urge every girl and one to go see this movie!! anyway I'm incredibly bored right now and i still haven' t solved my man problems i just don't know what to do anymore I'm considering becoming a recluse why does this have to be so confusing!!and lately all I've wanted is to be on own is this normal??i just don't want to be surrounded by people i don't know why its strange for me i love to be social but lately all I've wanted to be is on my own surrounded my know one but my thoughts but then i end up getting annoyed because my thoughts are so deep and confusing....is this right..??

OK so i have this best friend who happens to be guy we've been friends for about 3 years now almost 4 and all of a sudden he springs on me that he really likes me and thinks he's falling in love with me now i have been in a state of shock for about 3 weeks now since he told me i don't know what to feel its confusing it brings back the old question never get with your best friend because you'll end up losing them like he's a great guy no doubt about it and everyone says we'll be great together but I'm afraid of risking everything over one stupid move! the idea of losing someone scares me like knowing that if we broke up we'd never be able to get back the long phone conversations and hours spent txting each other!and to make matters worse i do have slight feelings for him but i also have feelings for other guys as well I'm not ready to dive int0 something but i feel bad for keeping him hanging on i just don't know what to do anymore its like i don't want to break his heart but what if i end up doing that i couldn't bare the thought of it i just don't know what to do honestly should you give it a shot with your best friend and risk everything or play it safe and don't act on idle feelings??what do you think??

where has indivduality gone?

ever wandered around Grafton street and noticed that every other girl aged between 13-18 is wearing way too much make-up and is decked out in the latest designer clothes with a huge handbag (usually juicy couture or Chloe)??this is what is known as the D4 girl and it is taking Dublin by storm for almost 3 years now. In my eyes it seems individuality has been ditched for stereotypical imagery. It is almost like we have become so insecure with ourselves we must conform and no longer feel comfortable in expressing ourselves through the clothes we wear but must conform with a stereotype in order to fit in. However the D4 style is not the only sterotype we see there are many and im sure this has been around since long before i was born. It just annoys me now that people are afraid to wear clothes they find intresting that reflect their style incase of what other people say fashion does not mean you must fit it means you stand out from the crowd. I really admire the people who wear what they want when they want it shows they have great confidence in themselves which i wish everyone could have at least a little bit of. I also noticed that teenage trend magazines do not influence indivuality but instead they influence this conformity to look like your favourite celebrity now i am not going to lie i have tried it myself but to no avail i still look like im trying to hard and am insecure with how i look. I am now 16 and am only begining to start breaking out of the mould i am no longer afraid to wear certain designers such as ecko by marc ecko or going for more contemporary designers such as beyu or miu miu. Hopefully in the near future we can see magazines influencing teenagers to become more indiviual in there choice of clothing and not that they must look a certain way or wear a certain brand or designer to fit in.