wanting something you just can't find!

so last night at captain A's calum didn't turn up after our split kinda thing and sitting there looking around sort of hurt it was weird because for so long i didn't need anyone around to hug or kiss it just wasn't me at all but sitting there on my own hit me maybe i just do want someone around you know just to be there and to cuddle and to go to the movies with stupid simple things maybe i wanted more then "just fun" with calum maybe i expected more from it actually no i did expect more from it! so im saying it i wouldn;t mind having a boyfriend around its just finding him is the problem i made a promise to myself not to settle for anyone unless its who i truly want to i've made alot of mistakes with picking boys most of them turning out to be controling or clingy or to pressurising! i just want my own rockstar not in the literal meaning of the word (would be nice though lol) but yehh a musician tall,dark eyes u know the usual like summers coming to an end and even though it was amazing and i made lots of new friends and have grown up immensly compared to the beginning i think i'd like to find someone to keep me company ha but yeh i don't like being on my own anymore i want someone to fall back on when things get rough!i'd love to know were he is lol.!